Twin's First Shots

Today was a pretty busy day. James took today off from work to go with me to the pediatricians office for the babies to receive their first set of shots now that they'll be two months old tomorrow! (time flies when you're having fun) Emily was first. She now weights 8 pds, 2 oz and Jayden weights 9 pds, 8 oz. They're both doing great and are very healthy. When the nurses got ready to give Emily her shots, James was holding her down and just when the nurses were about to give Emily her shots James said wait, wait, wait... mommy has to hold her down, I can't do it. (and I thought he was supposed to be there for support) Anyways, supermom to the rescue, but I did ask him hold down Jayden since I didn't think it was fair that I had to hold down both of them. Hearing them cry and knowing that they're in pain breaks my heart too. After the doctor's appointment we went to the pharmacy to get infant Tylenol just to be prepared since JJ had got a very high fever when he had received his first shots. Then we went to drop off the breast pump we had rented from the hospital. Hunger started to kick in so we decided to go to IKEA to have lunch then to look around since James had never been there and I had only been there one other time with my sister-in-law and her mother on Tuesday. As we headed home we made a stop at the grocery store to pick up a few things, which turned onto a cart full of things that we needed. Just before we were getting ready to leave the store it started lighting and raining hard outside and James was upset with ME because he said I take too long at the grocery store and he had told me he wanted to leave before it started raining. I wasn't in the mood to argue with him because it rained. So, I just told him to look on the bright side, "you won't have to water the flowers when we get home." (there's always an upside to everything that happens) The twins have slept for most of the day, now I just hope that they'll sleep most of the night too. For now, thank you for reading and sharing, have a good night and God bless.

From miscarriages to Twins!

At birth Jayden weighed 5 pds, 3oz and was 18 1/4 inches long. Emily was 4 pds, 6oz and 17 1/2 inches long. Jayden was born 3 seconds before Emily!

The twins were 1 week old when we took these pics and my husband and I had so much fun doing them.

Emily and Jayden are a true blessing! After our son JJ turned 1, James and I had been trying to get pregnant so that JJ could have a sibling to grow up with. I, unfortunately, was not one of those women who enjoyed being pregnant. I was so sick all the time and the extra weight was unbearable. But, what's 9 months compared to a lifetime of love for your children. (A labor of love!) Days, weeks, months and before we knew it almost 3 years had passed and we were starting to doubt that we would have any more children. Then in October, 2006 I missed my cycle so I took a test, it was positive! We couldn't believe it and I went right out to buy a blanket for the expected baby. I called my OBGYN to schedule our first appointment which also consisted of an ultrasound to help further determine how far along we were. When we saw the ultrasound, there it was, a tiny beating heart. It was such a beautiful sight, my husband and I cried tears of joy. But my joy quickly turned into curiosity because the tech seemed concerned and called the doctor in. Our fetus's heart rate was weak. I knew they were trying to ease our concern and explained to us not to alarm ourselves, that this can sometimes be common early on in a pregnancy and they asked for us to come next week again for another ultrasound to closely monitor the heart rate. Sure enough, despite our prayers, my tears of joy were now tears of sorrow. As a stared at the monitor in disbelief, that tiny beating heart, that beautiful, wonderful tiny beating heart, was now motionless and to make things worse, my husband was not able to be there at this appointment, as he was for the first; I was all alone (or so it felt)

Excuse me a moment.....reliving this is really painful and I just had to clear the tears from my eyes and catch my breath. Wow, I had no idea I would react and feel this way talking about this experience, especially now since I have my twins. I guess this was one of those things that I put away in a box and hide in a corner somewhere deep down in my heart.

As I sat on the examination table, I swallowed hard to fight back my tears. I knew that once I really started crying it would take some time to stop. (the tears may stop but the pain never goes away) We had to discuss whether I was going to let the fetus pass through my body naturally, which could take days or if I wanted to schedule a DNC, which is when they remove the fetus for you. It was the week of Thanksgiving and I just wanted this behind me. How could I function properly knowing that I was carrying our baby and it was dead! So many things ran through my mind but ultimately I felt that the DNC was the choice best suited for me. After about 6 to 8 weeks later, my husband and I made the decision to continue trying to have another baby, praying that the miscarriage was a one time occurrence and that the next time all would turn out OK. So, we keep trying and in August, 2007 we had another positive pregnancy test! I didn't want to get my hopes up too quickly so I didn't go out and buy something for this baby till we got further along but, I was so excited. At about 5 weeks along I began spotting and spotting turned into bleeding. James and I rushed to our OBGYN, which did an emergency ultrasound and our fears were confirmed.....we were having another miscarriage. I was furious and hurting. I was confused and I kept asking God why? But, deep down I knew God was not to blame and I was just angry. I didn't know how to react so I told my husband I was through trying. I told him I didn't want any more children and that JJ was enough of a handful for us to handle. Plus, I told James, we could adopt in the future, if we really decided that we wanted to have more kids. Well, as fate and God would have it, I missed my period that following month and we had yet another positive read! I was nervous and pist that I let it happen again. At 6 weeks along I began spotting. I had a brief emotional breakdown and yet again, rushed to my OBGYN, this time with my brother because I didn't want to go alone since James had to work. That is were I found out that I was carrying twins and that they were doing just fine, despite the scare. As of April 14th, 2008 our twins finally arrived! Like some people have said to us: You lost two and God blessed you with two. They say that God will not have us go through more than we can indure and that those things that do not kill us only makes us stronger. I feel that after this whole baby making ordeal is now behind us (since I had my tubes done while having my c-section done when the twins were born) I'm definately stronger in so many levels and that this is only the beginning to many ordeals to come but with God by our side they too shall be overcome by God's will. For now, thank you for reading, for sharing and God Bless!

First time JJ met twin Bro & Sis

How did your other children react to meeting their new sibling(s) for the first time?

Yesterday was a good day...

Yesterday was a good day…. NO, it was a great day! James and I did not have one argument, even though we had been fighting all week long over the stupidest things. You see, my husband, James and I, don’t argue or fight over anything major because not much goes on in our lives that brings much friction at this moment. The things we get mad at each other over are the “tone” in our voice when speaking to each other or looking at one and other the wrong way and so on. I know – stupid! But, no relationship is perfect and we sure as all heck don’t pretend ours is.

Let me fill you in as to what goes on and has gone on in our relationship recently. As of March 1, 2008, my husband and I were granted court appointed custody of our niece and 2 nephews, from my husband’s side. I won’t get into details, at this time, as to why, but I will tell you I was pregnant with twins and was supposed to be on bed rest, not to mention that my husband and I already have our 4 year old son, James Jr. know as JJ. We live in a 3 bedroom, 1½ bath home and overnight we went from a family of 3 to an instant family of 6 soon to be 8 at that time! I was freaking out but I kept my cool and literally took it one day at a time.

Above is the first picture of me holding the twins for the first time when they were born! The hospital was having a two for one special on April 14th, 2008 - lucky us!

Here I am world!

Well, here I am world! I have just made it to the world of blogging. I've been hearing a lot about blogging and what not, so I decided to go for it and give it a try. So far so good, but it's only been a few minutes so far.
I'm looking forward to sharing with you who I am and what I'm all about. This whole blogging thing makes me feel so free and open - ready to share. Here I go:
I'm 5'2", brown hair, brown eyes......just kidding, lol, this isn't the personal ads, plus, I'm happily married with three beautiful children. (I'll fill you in about them real soon.)
If you couldn't tell by now, I like to "think" I'm funny, which to me means that I have a good sense of humor. My mother would disagree, saying that I don't know when to keep my mouth shut and that I take things I say to far. My husband would say that it's all about who's judging the humor. (He doesn't think I'm that funny, just silly.) But, like I always say "opinions are like butt holes, everyone has one!" they don't think that's funny, either. (hehehe!)
Anyways, like I said before, I am married. I have been married going on 5 years, as of November 8th, 2008 to my dear husband, James. WOW, five years! Time flies, when you're having fun and by fun I mean having had our three bundles of joy. Our oldest, is our son, JJ, who is 4 years old and our other two are twins, our middle child, boy named Jayden and our baby girl, Emily. They were just recently born in April!
I don't want to give my whole life story all on the first night, Lord knows I could keep going on and on and on and on, so I'll rap up my first blog by saying thanks for reading and sharing and have a good night! God Bless.